Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Rollercoasters

I never liked rollercoasters...
The thought
Of one moment being stationery
The next you speeding off
To a dizzying height
Upside down
Then flung back up right again
Was just too sickening
They always gave me stomach cramps
And made me puke
I never liked rollercoasters....
Emotional ones too

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

You are Daddy

We were playing hide and seek
Find me - hug me
When she squeezed her cheeks
Next to mine and asked
"Daddy whats this?"
To which I replied
"Its a beard nana,
Daddy has a beard
'cause he is a boy"
She smiled
And looked at me confused
Then she chuckled
As if she had figured it out
As if I was trying
To pull a fast one on her
And said
"No, you are not a boy
You are daddy"
And with those word's
She stole my heart again....

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Maybe I will find answers.....maybe

Maybe if I write it down
It will make sense
Maybe i'll know
Maybe I wont
But I can then say
At least i tried
Because heavy breathing
And crying doesn't help anymore
The tears
Only soak the pillows
And my heart remains heavy

Maybe if I write it down
It will make sense
I dont know why we always argue
Or why screaming
Doesnt make me feel better
I dont know
What we argue about
Or what you say
When you shout
My words bounce off walls
And my heart remains heavy

Maybe if I write it down
It will make sense
Why I love so hard
What I did for love
And what it does for me
And continues to do to me
How love keeps me sane
And how it drives me to the edge of madness
How its both "the calm"
And "the storm"
My ink
Sinks only in paper
And my heart remains heavy

Thursday, June 5, 2014

The story(3am twitching)

Its 3am
And I am chasing demons, again
Chasing dragons in the smoke
Praying morning doesn't come
Give me one more hit
To keep the sun at bay
Give me one more hit
To keep the sun at bay
The darkness hides me
From reality
That keeps reaching for me
From the edge of the shadows
Just beyond the darkness...