Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Defloration

She told me she was a virgin
She had never heard poetry before
So I put on my best suit
And laid rose petals on the floor
Held her by the hand
And told her dont be scared
It might hurt in the beginning
But thats just normal
Don't rush, take your time
Or you'll just ruin it
The trick is to listen with your heart
And let it move you
Hear each syllable
In the rhythm of your heart beat
Like each word was written
Just for you
Exhale only after each sentence
Inhale at the beginning of the next
Breathe life into inspiration
And inspiration into life
Poetry isnt for the celibate
It can take your innocence
As quickly as it can return it

She told me she was a virgin
She had never heard poetry before
And wanted her first time
To be memorable
So I set up a candlelit dinner table
Had the moon and the stars as audience
As words did the moonwalk on the milkyway
I was but the vessel
Through which they spoke
Words too heavy for my lips to carry
Offered up to the wind
Sacrificial poems to the slaughter
To woo this maiden's heart
A courtship to last a life time
A beautiful walk in the park
That sometimes turns to a storm
A performance once witnessed
You can never be the same again
Poetry is beautiful
Brutal
And unforgiving

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

When Prayer Isn't enough

When faith isn't enough
They turn to
Sleight of hand gimmicks
To grab your attention
Jedi mind tricks
To keep your affection
While you pray
Their hands are deep
In your pockets

Keeping you hostage
With threats of
Eternal burning infernos
And promises of prosperity
That lie at the end of the rainbow
Exploiting your need to believe
Your priceless search for meaning
Reduced to 10% of your paycheck
While these so-called prophets
Are knee-deep in blood,sweat and tears money
Prayers on the back of bank notes
Broken backs
Held up by illusion
Smoke and mirror sermons
By prophets trying to be God
Misleading the ones trying to find God
So hungry for the truth
That they would eat up anything
That almost looks like it...

When Prayer isn't enough
They'll promise you riches
When all you are looking for
Is God

Monday, September 22, 2014

Right through me

After each
Momentary stare
Each second
That seems to last
Longer than it actually is
You
        See
Right
         Through me...

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Today

Today
Is one of those days
When I realise
How much
I truelly love you
And looking into your eyes
Is my favourite
Pastime

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

FIRE BREATHERS

When the fire breathing men
Were done
All that was left
When the smoke cleared
Were the charred remains
Of open mics
And the deafening silence
Of the truth seeking speakers
The smell of burnt spirits
Lingered
In the air.......

Friday, August 1, 2014

Your eyes

I take deep breathes
everytime I look  into your eyes
Because there in lies
All my weaknesses
The stories untold
The dreams never revealed....

Thursday, July 31, 2014

I need to learn

I guess
I need to learn
That the peace
Doesn't last forever
The moments are few
And far between
And as fleeting
As shooting stars
Sometimes...
Just as elusive

I guess
I need to learn
That happiness
Is not all roses
With its beauty
Its brings thorns
Storms
And grey clouds
Its not 
Always sunshine

I guess
I need to learn
That happiness
Lives within all of us
And there
Is hope in tomorrow
When we 
Find happiness
Somewhere
In our sorrow!

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Rollercoasters

I never liked rollercoasters...
The thought
Of one moment being stationery
The next you speeding off
To a dizzying height
Upside down
Then flung back up right again
Was just too sickening
They always gave me stomach cramps
And made me puke
I never liked rollercoasters....
Emotional ones too

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

You are Daddy

We were playing hide and seek
Find me - hug me
When she squeezed her cheeks
Next to mine and asked
"Daddy whats this?"
To which I replied
"Its a beard nana,
Daddy has a beard
'cause he is a boy"
She smiled
And looked at me confused
Then she chuckled
As if she had figured it out
As if I was trying
To pull a fast one on her
And said
"No, you are not a boy
You are daddy"
And with those word's
She stole my heart again....

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Maybe I will find answers.....maybe

Maybe if I write it down
It will make sense
Maybe i'll know
Maybe I wont
But I can then say
At least i tried
Because heavy breathing
And crying doesn't help anymore
The tears
Only soak the pillows
And my heart remains heavy

Maybe if I write it down
It will make sense
I dont know why we always argue
Or why screaming
Doesnt make me feel better
I dont know
What we argue about
Or what you say
When you shout
My words bounce off walls
And my heart remains heavy

Maybe if I write it down
It will make sense
Why I love so hard
What I did for love
And what it does for me
And continues to do to me
How love keeps me sane
And how it drives me to the edge of madness
How its both "the calm"
And "the storm"
My ink
Sinks only in paper
And my heart remains heavy

Thursday, June 5, 2014

The story(3am twitching)

Its 3am
And I am chasing demons, again
Chasing dragons in the smoke
Praying morning doesn't come
Give me one more hit
To keep the sun at bay
Give me one more hit
To keep the sun at bay
The darkness hides me
From reality
That keeps reaching for me
From the edge of the shadows
Just beyond the darkness...

Friday, May 9, 2014

Mending roofs

And when
They were done
Fixing the leaks to her roof
Mending them
With good memories
Hopes and dreams.....
She slept peacefully
That night,
Woke up early
And poked holes
In the roof again
She couldnt stand
The silence
The peace reminded her
Of the quiet before a storm
A heart torn
She preffered the constant rain
A pain she was prepared
To live with
At least she knew it was coming
It was no longer a surprise
The random drips
Were now expected
The loud storms
Were welcomed
With open arms
Peace rejected
Because she didnt know
How long
It will last

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

They'll start caring

They'll start caring
When you hanging from the ceiling
Giving long eulogies
Pretending like they knew you
Shedding fake tears
That could have been prevented
By a single hug

They'll start caring
When you hanging from the ceiling
Because the cuts
On your wrists
They pretended not to see
Couldnt numb the pain
Anymore

They'll start caring
When you hanging from the ceiling
Because your screaming
And loud silence
Couldnt get their attention
And everything you did
Was brushed off as rebellious

They'll start caring
When you hanging from the ceiling
And even then
They wont know
That these
Are not poems
But prayers

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Find myself In You

I want to see myself
In your eyes again
Be the one
That takes your pain away
Hear my name
In each breathe you take
I want to lose myself
In you again

Thursday, April 10, 2014

The truth

And
when the lights come on
You're the one
Holding the gun
And shooting....

Monday, March 31, 2014

I see you

I see you...
And with every look
You own me
I see you
And wonder
If you see me
Like
I see you

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Where art thou

I wondered
Where my poems went
I thought they had wandered off
While I wasnt looking
Or they just ran away
Because I wasnt paying attention
Gone to that far off place
Where poems go to, to die
I searched deep within me
Hoping that some had pitied me
And stayed behind
Knowing I couldnt live
Without them
I started thinking
That those with a wandering eye
Had left me
For a better looking poet
With flawless skin
A sixpack and a larger vocabulary
Who can project his voice better
And the ladies swooned
Over his manly voice
I searched the depths
Of my soul...
As I was about to give up
And update the status of my defeat
It dawned on me
My precious poems
Never left me
I had merely reduced them
To meaningles tweets
And stupid status updates
To the point
That even I
Dont recognise them...

Friday, February 21, 2014

2014/02/14

I am not angry
I am hurting
I am ripping apart in two
And I can't
Even turn to you

I am not sulking
I am gasping for air
The pain too much
For my chest to bare

Every exhaled breath
A battle

I am
Not crying
I'm bleeding

Monday, February 17, 2014

2014/02/06Kganya

Two years ago
On this day
I held you
For the first time
You held me
With your smile
I made promises to my heart
Some I could not keep
But each day there after
Was lived for you
And the joy
You have given me
Surpassed only
By the sense of purpose
You have instilled in me
From Dad to bodyguard
Protecting you
From everything
The world throws at you
Yet, still trying to figure out
How to protect you
From my flaws

Monday, January 20, 2014

Demons2014/01/20

There is no cure
For the demons I live with
There is no rest
For those who are afflicted
The demons never die
You just have to keep fighting
Or they'll tear
Your whole life apart
With you as an accomplice

There is no cure
For the demons I live with
They lay dormant
Waiting to pounce
Sometimes they play dead
To fool you
Into letting your guard down
Then like fireworks
Everything goes up in smoke

There is no cure
For the demons I live with
You just have to keep fighting
There is no rest
For those who are afflicted
Except
Death

Friday, January 17, 2014

I wrote a poem2014/01/17

I wrote a poem
And only
When I was finished
Did I realise
I wrote it
For you

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

2014/01/19Talking

I don't talk anymore
Talking has become a chore
The words, too heavey
For the air in my lungs to carry
Each word
Making it hard
To breathe

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Untitled 2014/01/09

There are times
when you have to write
Not because you are inspired
But because
It's the only thing
That makes sense
The only thing
That keeps
you
sane...

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Sometimes

Sometimes things
Don't make sense
There isn't  always an explanation
For why certain things happen
To certain people
Sometimes things just happen
And to keep sane
Sometimes you have
To accept that
Without understanding why
Without questioning
The reason
For the moment
In lapse of judgement
But acknowlwedging it happened
"Why" won't heal the wound
It won't erase the scar
Nor the moment from memory
Sometimes there isn't an answer
There just isn't......

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Hope

Even in the
Darkest of hours
There is
Minutes of hope
Seconds of light
So bright
The darkness
Ceases to exist

Self-Preservation

Love poems
Written on the palm
Of my hand
Blurred out
By childish handstands
On wet surfaces
Cartwheels leaving me
On my back
Staring at the roof
The floor
As my cape
Thinking I'm heroic
When I failed
To save me
From
Myself